I've teamed up with Pretty Little Thing to bring you my #Galentines blog post. I want all my fellow single gals to join me and boycot the holiday and let's be our own valentines.
This isn't a blog post about disliking men, this is a blog post about LOVING OURSELVES. When I tell people I've been single for 4 years, they seem slightly shocked or sometimes people look at me like "aww poor girl" and ask me "why?" I simply reply "out of choice" and that is honestly true.
I was the 'relationship girl' and I was in back to back serious relationships from the age of 15 to 21! That 6 year period unfortunately coincided with the most testing years of adolescence, the ones defined by a teen's constant battle against raging hormones! Break-outs; break ups, heartbreak, first loves, starting my period, losing my virginity, realising that my parents aren't bionic robots and that they too make mistakes, body changes and trying to figure out what I wanted to do in life along with all the other things we experience as a teenager. I went through all of these things whilst being in an intense relationship with a single father (who I eventually ended up moving in with) and afterwards I was in another relationship with someone with an extremely strenuous job who lived 5 hours away, who I eventually moved in with after my first relationship had fallen apart. I was out of the house and a step-mum by the age of 18!
However, I don't believe in regrets and I don't regret any decision I make no matter how terrible it is. What I'm trying to say is that, upon reflection, I realised that I grew up too quickly in relationships and missed out on growing up as an individual.
I needed my own time over the past 4 years and getting to know who I actually am. If it takes another 4 years then I am prepared to wait, I truly believe that our lives are on their own unique courses and everything happens for a reason. So I'm not desperate to find love but I'm also aware that I'm not going to be alone forever.
I was an extremely dependent child, dependent on my parents for love which then carried into my relationships and friendships because I wasn't happy in my own company.
Over this course of time I have been through particular health struggles which eventually ended up with me being in hospital for a course of 6 months. I was diagnosed with a paralysed stomach along with other bits and bobs. BUT it was the best thing that ever happened to me because yes my family and friends were allowed to visit, but the majority of the time was spent alone. Admittedly it used to scare me, as I couldn't even go to the shops on my own, let alone sit in a hospital bed with no wifi, tv just my own company.
And do you know what? Now I adore my own company. I go to the cinema on my own, I go for dinner on my own and I absolutely love it. I love being around my family and friends don't get me wrong, but I equally love being alone.
I love every inch of my body, all of my insecurities and imperfections make me beautiful. I love my kind heart and my endless loyalty and unconditional love that I give to the people close to me. And one day someone will be lucky enough to take my heart, look after it, love it, cherish it and will grow with me in my life and my journey.
I know that one day I will find someone who treats me like their valentine every single day (obviously I'm aware it's not plain sailing) but I am focusing on me and building my empire. I lost myself in previous relationships and realised that it's difficult to expect someone to make you feel whole when you aren't whole yourself. You shouldn't depend on a man to complete you. So that's what these past 4 years have been, figuring out exactly what I want in life and in relationships.
I want to be the BOSS of my life and take control of it, hence the reason I chose this outfit because I am genuinely channelling my inner Sandy from Grease. That end scene where she fully takes control and gives us serious sass, she was my inspiration for this outfit.
I always want to feel sexy because when I feel sexy, I feel confident. Make yourself feel beautiful and when you are about to leave the house look in the mirror and tell yourself 3 positive things that you love about yourself or your outfit or your make up!
Don't look for someone else to love you if you don't love yourself. I honestly believe that when the time is right and my Valentine comes to find me then I will be ready, but right now I am in love with my life and that's enough for me.
So girls join me on this #galentines and let's all stick together, empower each other, compliment each other and love each other!!
This year it's all about US so treat yourself to a new sexy jumpsuit or playsuit and go out and fall in LOVE WITH YOUR LIFE, every second of it. Shop this look below honeys and also head over to https://www.prettylittlething.com/valentines-day where you can get your Valentine's kit on! Have an amazing day honeys and remember a smile is the best curve a woman can wear, so wear it everyday and be happy my angels!